To E

u have moulded me to become one of the most shameless person around
it is no wonder why it doesn't and never bothers you how i feel
silly is no longer a good enough word to describe my otherwise insensible actions
stupidity might be a better word or a more powerful word could be used
i contemplated
i looked through the memory lane
and concluded u matter enough for a try
only to realise that a bunch of true and untrue explanations and reasonings float your world
is your world ever so righteous
so orderly
so planned
or was it me
i m tired of trying to invade a world that is closed to me
trying so hard to talk to a soul who only sees himself and her
perhaps many times i refused to see the signals
to see the closed door and slammed right into it
perhaps i chose to hurt myself
i m putting you away
the thought of u as a companion came to mind today
i actually used the word companion
and well you have put it plainly again
that it can never be
so lead your life
as i lead mine
vowed not to let u matter anymore in my life
as my mere mortal life
cannot accomodate a superhero like you