From now on

I will be bitter no more.
Will try to live each day as if it was the last.
Live for the moment.
And make most of the life I've got left.
To the people who love me.
Thank you.
To the people I love.
I did and always will.
Perhaps our paths will not cross again
But I wish for happiness for you.
Be it now or forever.
Goodbye.

words... when it is not enough

words are not enough
i can't express myself anymore
i wish i was stronger
to not want
things i will never own
if and only if
i could control what i think and feel.
i would be happier.
truely
really
soon.

bitter bite

thoughts.
bitter bites.
fight.
wants.
reality.
tired.
of it all.

Feel

I hate feelings.
I do not like to want.
Hanging by a thread.
Weary.
I seek a rainbow.
To see the beauty of the world.
Yet.
After a storm.

If only I could...

Vanished.

That would be easier.

My heart

A cold heart will freeze and crack.
Melt me!
The only reason why my heart is still beating is
coz it is still not time to die.
JADED.

In Transit

Transiting.
Packing up the promised forevers in a box.
A tad too overwhelming.
I hope I make it.
Just let me go.

Worldly vice

The world in its jealousy.
I live and learn.
Exhausted but not derailed.
I seek a better life.
A life without you.

Realised

Realised.
My heart changed long ago.
As far as two years back.
It was not the same.
Denial was all it was about.

Differences

I was deliriously happy yesterday.

Someone is bitter.

That I am happy.

Ramen. Shochu.

My happy trigger.

Letting go

Life at a standstill.

Change is constant.

How apt.

Life on the balance.

Pain a necessity.

Letting go does not always mean you are weak.

It is only when you are strong enough to.

The day after you left

A day after.
A new beginning.
To the dreams and hopes I had.
Goodbye.
I can't get to sleep.
I can't seem to function.
I know the lines.
I know the excuses.
I know the reasons.
Knowing and accepting it is not the same.
I loved you.
For now and the time to come.
I may or may not say the same.
Perhaps we were two parallel lines after all.
Maybe the crossroads was an illusion.
In our two different worlds.
Under the same big sky.
You decided.
You are leaving.
And left.